Feeling Insignificant

Dharma Glimpse by Jean

On one of my travels last year, I had the privileged experience of walking in a very remote and wild place. It was quite misty, raining and windy and cold, but it felt really exhilarating to be immersed in, and battling nature, in this starkly beautiful spot. The weather seemed to be appropriate for the bleakness and brutality of our surroundings.

When back at base we showered and changed, and I then stepped outside to see in the distance where we had been. I was very still, just enjoying a quiet moment on my own, looking and taking it all in. In my surroundings I was witnessing the sheer force of nature that can’t be contained or controlled. It was in that moment that I became totally over-whelmed by the feeling of being completely insignificant on our earth. Not just me, but all of us humans. Nature and the natural elements will always dominate us whatever anyone chooses to think, and despite what seems our best efforts to work against her. But I also felt the presence of a higher power out there, a power beyond touch or control, as if it was somehow directing and organising, A bit like a conductor leading an orchestra.

The feeling of insignificance wasn’t a bad or sad feeling, more one of complete wonder and amazement and of giving in to and accepting something larger and more powerful than anything I had experienced before. I didn’t know what it was at the time, just that it was a profoundly moving moment. I think I know now.

This year, instead of dancing around the edges of it which I have done for many years, I decided to embrace my Buddhist faith in a deeper and more meaningful way. I now realise that when I was stood outside and having that moment, I was not only looking at beauty, but also at hope, light, faith, power, and recognising the constant change and impermanence of our surroundings and existence. Yes I felt insignificant, but I also felt so very warm and loved, like I was being held and looked after. I feel immense gratitude.

Namo Amida Bu.

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